August 2nd, 2006
rambling
First of all i would like to say ... I AM BORED WITH MY LAYOUT .... yes i bored with his layout... but i don't know how to change it .... i'm not good at this HTML things .... trying someway to change it but it end up i stick with this background!
It's actually pretty cool journal that i have compare to the other journal that I abandoned .... i register in tons of free journal/blog, but it end up i stick to this tabulas one. For me tabulas is more simple and easier to use, but i guess not everbody things the same as i do.... it's more like habit don't you think so? Just because you start blogging with Tabulas, you will think this one is easier, while for others who start with xanga ... think xanga easier .. and the same goes to blogspot user....
Hmm what's the use of posting something in blog or journal? sometimes i find it interesting, people can read your blog and give some reply ... but sometimes you post something that you don't want certain people to read it and it happen that certain people read it .... it can be total annoying ....
I remember 2 years ago in Mental Health Class ... they lecturer 'force' us to make a journal, not online journal. but written one with a book and you wrote it with your pen. This project went on for 1 full semester ... i remember i complain that i don't like the written journal, cause you have to hand in your journal to the lecturer and she's reading it .... the feeling that she's superior made my writing style change .... i can't write like this and that .... so it's totally like making a rule in expressing your feeling ... it's like there's border which can not be cross....
There's a lot of things I learn from that project. she asked us to make letter to someone we really do care, she asked us how do we deal with our stress and everything .... how we face problem and everything. It made me realize a lot of things ... realize that every people got their own way to face their problem, i can't expect everyone to solve their problem the way i do to mine... make me realize how egoistic i can be in certain time .... I want people to work their butt off with certain standard that i've set ... but mostly it end up in dissapointment ....
WHich is more important to me? process or results? i remember being asked this question once .... i try to be realistics but too bad realist wasn't welcome ... some peoples were looking for idealist.... my answer toward this question was ... "for me, process is the most important part, but we can't work on something without any standard, so both are important." and if you asked me the same question again ... i will answer the exact same answer as i answered back then. If you don't set standard, you will be most likely think, ah well process matter so if i made 20 out from 100 .... it's also a process right? from 0 to 20 ... cause we don't have any standard ... it will be like ah as long as there is result even only 0.01 it will be okay --;;;;;;
<tbc>
Love,
Ingrid~
