[.:.InGrid's Alter Ego.:.]

It's been a really busy and tiring days for me. Since lunar new year mean gathering with our family. Guess what as usual there's too much food .... too much snack !!! i'm gaining weight AGAIN ... after all the effort i've been through these time to lose weight .. i gain weight ... so after the new year is pass, i'm going to have another diet ... at least no more snack or high calorie food for me....

you know the calorie of the cakes and cookies can surpase the callorie in the meal we have. it's totally devastating and frustrating to see yourself getting fatter -.-;

Okay let's skip about the food and the frustrating body weight!

So what did i do beside eat and gathering? let me see of course going to gym, you know to balancing the input and output ^^ just kidding!

I've got nothing to do at least till this week, after that i gotta work out my butt for my graduation ... so i really have to work extra if i want to graduate this year .... i just don't want any more delay again!!!

i shouldn't let myself like this again, i must graduate as soon as i can ... and then find a work and then find a university again .... so just working first and then continue my study .... btw, i was thinking is there any job that i could find, which can cover my s2 study program .... and i want to travel alot if i already work ^^

Okay i'm too tired today ... i put up another entry tomorrow

 

LOupe,

Ingrid~

Okay guys i've been updating not so regularly, it really depend on my mood when i'm updating my journal. I don't know if it's good or bad. But having a journal like this really do have some good advantages for me.

Like some of my previous entry, i've been pouring out my thoughts about how my feelings towards those homophobic and stuff. Do you think if it's a real argument, i will win? LOL well i have arguing with my best friends, cause they're homophobic, and i told them their judgement are totally cruel. they don't know a thing about homosexual people, and who are they giving such a stereotype!

Okay enough about the previous issue! so let's move on to the new topic in here.

So today i'm talking about Valentine, it's 5 days until Valentine. I got no plan in this year. But i'm hoping there's going to be a surprise for me ROFL okay, enough of the daydreaming.

So i did have a plan on last year valentine, *shrugs* but that jerk, because of his selfishness and without any warning or anything, just made it my worst valentine day ever! 

You won't play a prank on someone at Valentine will you. I don't know if he's playing a prank. he just said he got some reason that he couldn't tell me. so it does seem like a prank to me. to tell the truth i like him at that moment. So i'm giving him another chance ... the 2nd time is like on April, he just left me on the mall cause he's tired. Damn that guy.

the 3rd time is totally the worst, he told me not to tell his friend about something. but it end up he tell it to his friend. So his friend might think i'm a total bitch or something.

So this guy is totally out of my life from the moment on. I never return his call, or return his message. all i want to do is to make him regret. But i don't know if he's regret or not. But well girls beware to this type of guy.

I want to have a great Valentine celebration this year. But it seems like i make this wish every year and it turn out to be nothing happening at all. so yeah i don't put too much hope at this year Valentine. But i think i want to buy something to show my love to my family. Such as my mom and my grandmother.

See, valentine isn't just about lover and date. it can be something about family too! well, since my friends already have their own date ... i don't have to shower them with my love and attention right? they got someone special to pamper them. Well, if i do pamper them their girlfriend might want to kill me!

Okay so I wrote 2 fic for Valentine. 1 is just a 1shot valentine ... a gift to myself ^^ and the other is around 10 chapter it's totally a gift for UjoNg012 member, since you guys are all in it!!! i hope you guys happy with my gift here. i can't give you anything else ... think this is one of the gift you guys expecting... just hope i will finish this in well 2 weeks

Hmm thinking of giving out chocolate to my friends, but hey i don't even meet them, so how could i give them chocolate? well maybe some email  and also e-cards will be okay, just want to show that i still care ...

I do have some wish for this year valentine .... i want everyone valentine to be great, at least some how sweet in their own way. I want everyone to feel love in the air .... Hope that people will find the true meaning of love in this Valetine day ....

Loupe,

Ingrid~

so it's closer to Valentine now .... are you guys waiting for something? well not me,. i don't have anything to do at Valentine. thinking of making some nice chocolate to give out to my friends, but since i don't know where to buy it, i didn't bother to cook the chocolate or giving them.

So to some of my friends, well guys i made you a special valentine fiction, hope you guys going to love it. Maybe not so good but it's my valentine gift for you~ it's totally better than nothing right?

 

Loupe,

Ingrid~

Valentine Day

Hello everyone so this is my entry for the Valentine day. There’s nothing special in this year valentine like what I expected it to be. No prince charming turned up and giving me a great surprise.

Spending another valentine year alone doesn’t upset me, well I’ve been through the worst valentine before, so nothing can upset me anymore. Like my last year valentine, trust me it’s the worst ever. What would you think if someone asked you out on the Valentine day, 1 week before Valentine, and remind your date again 2 days before, but doesn’t show up at the day without any call or anything.

Make me wait and call, afraid something would happen to him. But turn out he’s okay, didn’t bother to give me any explanation at all, in which I totally deserve one. Don’t you guys think so?

What could make you felt worse than that? So I think nothing worse will ever happen on my valentine day again. But well, I don’t know yet.

From what I learn, never expect anything good happen at you, okay I do sounds pessimistic in here. But if you hope something happen to you, your disappointment will be bigger and you will be more upset when it turned out the way you don’t expect it.

The bigger your expectation toward something, the bigger it upset you. It’s good to expect and have a dream, but sometimes well you have to prepare yourself for the worse too. Not being pessimistic but being realistic. That will make life nicer.

I want to have a date, but well no date doesn’t upset me. Cause I’ve seen several of my friends like being tied up by their partners. That really disgust me, having a boyfriend or girlfriend doesn’t mean you got to stop socializing. Some of them even date the guy they don’t even like just because they’re afraid being single. Well, that’s not good too. You’re playing with their feelings. Don’t like that either.

Being single is totally cool for me, but there’s a certain time I feel like I need someone special to care for me. It’s good to have someone who’s showering you with their attention. But well, in certain amount it’s good, but just not too over. It will make you feel not comfortable like being tied up.

Commitment seems so serious and to tell the truth not only guy afraid with that C word, even I a little bit scared with that C word. So, it keep me wondering why my friends getting married so fast. They’re younger than me. Okay, the maturity age on every people not the same. Maybe it’s the right time for them to settle down but definitely not the right time for me to settle down.

I told myself that I want to have tons of funs before I settle down. You see that C word will totally tied you up forever, so before you make that big step you really ought to have FUNS … so at the time you’re tied up you won’t feel like… regret it.

 Loupe,

Ingrid~

DOn't know since when i become so addicted to this body pump class. But well i make it a routine joining this class, it's like my fave reason going to the gym.... Okay not forget to mention IF the trainer is cute and sexy LOL i find one who fit that criteria!you know that trainer well just call him X. He's cute OMG his smile is so cute but some rumour said that he's GAY!!! what a pity! and who the hell going to be his lucky boyfriend *envy* So another instructor a female. So this female totally have a great body and muscle!!! so seeing her is like motivating yourself .... hope i can motivate myself by staring at her LOL stupid me My goal is to have a nice body like her *hopefully* GooD LuCk for Me!~~~~ Loupe, Ingrid~