[.:.InGrid's Alter Ego.:.]

InGrid012

What else can i say about my life ... it almost like my life is a total routine which can be say as so predictable! and it's making me feel a little bit boring ... don't you think so?

Oh yeah i'm thinking of making Body Pump class becoming my routine ... but don't know yet ... i mean there's so many body pump class ... and so many different instructor teaching ... so far i only have join 2 class of body pump with different instructor .. both of them are great .... i'm thinking about trying the class on sunday who know i found it more attractive?

what's the different between hiphop and street jam? can anybody tell me the difference? i totally feel that they're teaching the same dance at that 2 class ... from what i know that street jam was supposed to be harder .. i mean more tough since they supposed to teach us popping cutting and stuff ... or should i say hiphop is broader than street jam ... i mean street jam is more specific ... omg i don't know what i'm talking in here ...

even i love to watch people danc .. but joining a dance class really frustrating for me ... not because i don't like to dance, it's just they teach us so fast ... i can't even memorize the movement and well not to mention i don't have any dance background ... so that mean my dance ability is totally zero ... while in the class most of them used to dance before ... this is >.<~~~~

oh yeah yonae pyonji aka love letter is totally funny ... but i must say xmen is funnier! okay .... HyunJoong of ss501 really impressed me! how should i say .... he's cute in that game ... loyal to his partner that he choose .... could you believe it he always stick to 1 girl of his choice from the beginning until the end of the show >.< since the other member was cruely switch from 1 to another partner .... that's totally so cute of him ... and when he made a request for the girl ... he's cute ... just so adorable .... i guess he's a romantic type? Okay, i will support Rina to go for HyunJoong ^_^ OMG i really can't imagine to have such a cute dongsaeng like that .... feel like i want to pinch his cheek for being cuch a cutie like that ....

on the contrary Brian of FTTS ... he's really make me laugh so hard -.- i used to think that he's the shy one ... but totally he's crazy and insane but yet he's adding the comedy to the games .... on the other hand Fanny seems more serious ... yeah i guess that's make FTTS more balance ... a lunatic and a normal guy -.-; sorry guys but you 2 made a cute team .... (thinking of them competing over chaeyeon on the games really funny... while end up chaeyeon being solo cause at the end both of them didn't choose her ... well at this point i should say that it's her own mistake)

let's end the discussion of love letter ^_^ but i'm gonna post another comment of love letter .. later ^_^

Loupe,

Ingrid~

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I've been watching the show .... so totally i must say the director is totally creative for making tha kind of gameshow ... well not only this game show ... but like happy together, x-man, heroinne, toyodaejakjon, rose war ... etc etc

wow really that's so creative ... making the whole concept of the show ... i must say working in the media really require a lot of creativity to make a lot of show that made people want to watch again and again ...

This while thing make me feel that i really want to work in that industry ... do you think it will be easy to work in tv station? not working as a reporter, i'm not the person who can work in the screen ... feel not comfortable ... but working behind the scene sounds nice to me ... like making the concept of a show ... preparing some script for the show ... or looking for a nice topic for show ... etc etc ... i feel like it will help me to meet lot of people and which sounds something that i can enjoy ....

Maybe i should try sending my CV to the newest tv station in here.... i don't know whether they're interested or not, but i can try ... or maybe they can even give a reference for me ... like translating for some movie ....

Don't know what to write on my resume .... never thought it would be this hard .... writing a CV also hard for me ... i found it hard to make my CV look interesting and eye catching .... if a simple one it's easy ... but to make it attractive but yet a formal one ... totally hard ....

I wanted to try sending my CV to tv station, radio station and advertising company ... well i want to send it to somewhere which require translating work ... but i really don't know where to send ... which company need a translation work ??? and beside i want a free lance ... hope it won't be hard to find a free lance work

Working in the school ... sounds a little bit depressing for me .... i don't know why but i guess it depend on the school and the student .... well maybe i should try to apply teaching language at school too .... which school? want to find a school near my house ... don't want to find a far away school it might made me collapse!

maybe a school which near the fitness club i attend? that will be so nice... i can go fitness before or after work? okay enough of daydream!!! i better take a nice formal picture for my CV and start sending my application!

Loupe,

Ingrid~

InGrid012

suddenly i feel like there's a lot of guys who's trying flirting with me ... this is just me become more and more "insane" or it's them who's really flirting?

Sometimes it's nice to flirt but well .... i'm not that type of girl who really can flirt ... i'm kind of harsh you know ... sometime when people flirt with me like, hey babe i miss you ... i would reply to him like ... okay stop telling a lie, how could you miss me a girl who you just knew ... or oh yeah that's really funny ....

I bet this kind of reaction is totally annoying to them but i found it sometimes good to avoid some annoying guy which i don't like ... hahaha is it making the guy who i like and who might be have feeling on me ... move back because they're afraid that i would treat them like that? well guys, -.-; i guess that's the reason why i'm still single up til now ....

So tell me, if girl who can't flirt back to a guy who flirt with me ... it make me single this while time? come on! i have friends who can't flirt but ending up already married and now she's even pregnant ... waiting for her child born this year ....

So, here's the story .... i haven't fall in love for over 6 years? am i that dense? no way i don't have the answer for that .... but i often miss that guy ... my first love ... who passed away almost 5 years ago ...... let me count ... he passed away from 15th April 2001 until now .... so it's 3 months more until 5 years ... well, time flew soooo fast .... it feel as if he's still alive only if he's in the other part of the world ....

sounds like I'm denying the fact .... don't you guys think so? but in fact he's already dead, no one can change that fact ... and i have to admit that ...

so after him... there's no one else that have made me feel that all fluttering in the heart ... you know that kind of butterfly in the stomach feeling? well, no never feel it again until now ... is it because i haven't met the right person right now? or it's just he's dead and taken away my feeling with him .... wow maybe i just haven't met the right one yet...

enough with the blabbering i'm totally full with anger of what just happen like 5 minutes ago .. a stupid bastard jerk ....

Loupe,

Ingrid~

InGrid012

I watch this game show AGAIN ... because of HyunJoong ... why? because he's cute .... i just love it when he's coupled up with DaYoung .. well they look good together ... total cuteness ....

Just on the 2nd time where he's couple up with OSeungEun ...well i really still prefer him with DaYoung ... and i guess he's the cutest one in ther because it seems like he always stick with his choice .... not move from one girl to another .... lucky her

on the contrary SungJin is a little bit cruel... he already paired up with a girl .. forget her name but she's a lil bit boyish but at the end he totally choose youngran aigoo that's sooooooooo cruel of him

the one with FTTS .... hahha that's so funny looking at Brian and Fanny ... the 2 of them really got different personality .... Fanny seems like shy guy and on the other hand Brian is shameless .... they are really cute .... especially when Brian try to act cute he's actually cute ^^;;; comparing to the other guy lke MyongHoon and SinJongHwan hahahahahaha am i cruel ... comparing brian to them?

X-Men ... with Fanny i love this show too ... to tell the truth i prefer XMan rather than Love Letter ... but it's really depend on the guest ... if the guest are funny .. the show are totally superb ...

they have to put some more variation ... sometimes it's so boring to see the same person again and again in the same show ... like myeonghoon he's like always doing the same trick over and over again .... at first it's funny but at the end you will find it boring ....

hey i wonder where all the singing game show gone? like the one toyodaejakjon used to have? he one where they have to sing in the stage .. and when their score is lower than they have targeted, then the stage will fell down ^^

hmm and dojon1000, i found it interesting too ... but well how someone supposed to memorize the songs that being picked up so randomly ....

Loupe,

Ingrid~

InGrid012

an nyeong ha se yo my lovely journal ... it's been like a week that i haven't update anything ... feel as if got nothing to update in here but in fact a lot of things going on in my own live....

so i went to teawalk at the sunday ... it's totally FUN ... and at night we went to eat at some korean restaurant ... eventhough i;m tired but it's totally FUN FUN FUN i really like the situation at that time

So i've been work out for 3 months ... don't feel any change in my own body ... but according to some of the friends, they saw some change in me, especially my hand muscle ... which i say supposed to be good .... i was wondering when can i get a nice biceps and triceps muscle ... plus a six-pack stomach????

Guess what guys? i met a pretty boy in the gym ... well, only met as in SEE .. watching only .... this guy looks pretty from the side ... not from in front hahaha cruel me ... okay and well he really reminds me to TAEBIN ... okay let me tell you he got a nice posture ... a great muscle and yet he's skinny just like taebin! and then he's wearing the white sleeveless shirt with a training trousers with a big cross liontin ... well it's just all so taebiny!!!! and he also have tan skin ... just so taebiny >.< can't describe anything else ... but only to say taebiny is totally hotter than him (duh! isn't it obvious) my taebiny honey is totally irreplaceable ...

So what will my reaction be if suddenly taebiny show up in front of me ... i'm totally will faint or i will just glopm to him or what crazy thing i might do at that time .... *get back to reality* well yah you know a little bit day dreaming won't do any harm

I'm into QUEER AS FOLKS .. this movie is totally something ... a nice plot and story but only it's a lil bit vulgar ... that's just adding more thing into the story ... so have to be really careful when i watch it ... don't want to get caught seeing guy and guy humping each other ... well humping ... is it the right word i should use? hahaha i don't know

*forgive my contamintaed mind*

Loupe,

Ingrid~

InGrid012

Hi everyone ... after more than a week .. i finally updating my little blogger again ... this time i'm going to discuss about QUEER AS FOLK

So for the title I bet you know what is the movie theme ... of course it's about a homosexual community ....In fact I'm interested in Homosexual theme .... long before this sitcom .... what do you guys think about homosexuality ....

There's tons of people who are really homophobic ... i hate them ... i mean i hate homophobic!!!! who the hell are they judging people by their sexual preferences? so what the hell is wrong with loving a same sex? it's just about love ... if it's about love, so why can't we love people with same sex?

just think about how people judging the homosexual people really make me sick! homophobic people are totally pathetic .... they're just soooo annoying. giving label to people without even want to understand a little bit .... well, maybe they should become homosexual for at least 1 month ... just to let them know how it feels like it ... having people judge them and how the social norm isolated them ...

Only if people supportive enough to the homosexual, they're just the same human being ... falling in ove isn't a crime ... i believe that even homosexual have a great relationship, and while the heterosexual also can have a worse relationship. What i'm trying to say is hetersoxuality is not a guarantee in a relationship.... if you don't believe me, just check on the divorce rate in the marriage .... of course you can't check on homosexuality divorce rate! since they're not approve to be married in most of country in the world ....

some country is wise enough to legalized the homosexual marriage .... i definitely agree and supporting the marriage in the same sex ... since their obstacle to be together is really big and hard ... their love will last! that's what i think. I mean if you don't really love someone, you won't go though all the difficulties and obstacle to be with them right? if you really love them, than you'll do everything just to be with them, that's why you find why your couple worth fight for ....

So.... since I'm totally supporting about homosexuality .... my friends and family think that i'm crazy. seriously, can't even a hetersexual support a homosexual? what kind of judgment is that?

Even I'm heterosexual, i won't judge homosexual people. I think they're nice too, sometimes they are even more sensitive than me .... (sometimes i'm too dense!!!! gosh!)

I really wish that someday, people won't have any negative feeling about homosexual. homosexual isn't a contagious disease, in fact, it's not a disease at all. Sometimes people like to relate homosexual with aids .... LOL this is funny ... If you know how to play it save, and you know how to protect yourself, than you won't get aids. Even heterosexual can get aids if they're not play it safe!

Why i support homosexual? i don't know, just in my opinion i really do think they're equal with us, just don't know what those homophobic thinks... and how do they get their stupid thoughts ....

Oh yeah some people think that I'm homosexual though. well, i don't give a shit about what they think. but sometimes i found it totally hilarious .... they judge people so easily.... guess what they ask me ... hey are you lesbo? and what do i answer them is even more weird .... as far as i know, i am hetero, but i don't know if i will fall in love with same sex ... but that won't make me lesbo... that making me bisexual? puhahahaha so it made them suspicious even more! but well, it's fun though >.<

Oh yeah Queer As Fol (QAF) i love this movie, showing us about the real world of homosexual ppl ^_^ and this guy ... gale harold which play as Brian Kinney! okay so what can i say about this character? this is a character which you guys will hate and love at the same time, he's a selfish prick but he's actually care for his friends ... but he just showing it in his own way ... of course you have to look at his background ... his childhood ... how his family raising him ... this is totally not a good way to raise your child ....

So this Brian is totally into one night stand ... he will f*ck anything that moves, that's what his friends say about him. Well, yeah all guys want him!!! he's totally hot ... hahahaha okay

So another character that nice is Emmet ^^ ... he's totally showing the feminine side of the homosexual people... but he is so nice and sweet ^^

Hope that this movie bring some knowlege in hetero ppl, so they won't judge homosexual again ^^ not calling them faggots and stuff >.< i hate it when ppl like cursing and making joke about that!

Loupe,

Ingrid~

InGrid012

Seems like the title i put up sounds a little bit offending by some people ... but don't care ^^

So after discussing about homosexuality yesterday ... i decided to talk about them again ... but yeah my fave movie of course ....

Does any of you watch Just One Question Of Love ? it's a French Movie ... eventhough i found this movie a little bit confusing since they're speaking FRENCH ... but i love the story so much. It's about a homosexual boy, who has discover his own sexuality preferences but don't have the courage coming out from the closet yet .... instead he's trying to hide it from his family.  But he got a really nice female friend who trying to cover it up for him, until one day he found  a boyfriend who's pushing him to admit that he's gay ....

The twist and turn in the movie is really awesome. It's really showing the dilema that i said most of homosexual people face. It's not east to coming out from the closet. To admit that you're in love with the same sex person, just because of how the social norm and how people will judge us.

They really should make more movie with this theme. So people will know about how the feeling and the life of them. So that they will be accepted and not being judge by their surrounding. Yeah, of course if they can accept it.

Just don't like them using the word FAGGOT .... what the heck they want? so i think homosexual who are admit to the public of their sexual preferences is totally brave!

It's not easy to overcome the obstacle from within yourself. But yet if they can admit it, they have to face tons of obstacle. But it's a wise choice. You're living for yourself not for other people. So just live your life to the fullest. Just live your life happily, you only live once ^_^ and yeah just be yourself .... don't have to put on a mask just to fulfilled someone wishes, or try to deny it to yourself. Denying is not good. It really make you not healthy.

Denying is a sort of ... self defense mechanism that people use to protect their ego, when they feel their ego is being threaten. so using it a little bit sometimes is good. But denying your true self isn't good. It makes you not healthy, i mean mental health ^^

So what should we do, i mean me and my friends, we totally support them. But, we don't know what we can do to help them. So are we going to make a Pro movement for them? or just making some seminar to make people realize that they're just the same with us.

Making seminar isn't easy. there's a seminar about homosexual in my univ before. But that's totally annoying, The speaker totally bashing homosexual. What the heck they're trying to tell. viewing it from the doctor side. So they think they're not normal and stuff.

I don't know about the whole seminar since i'm not participating. Luckily I'm not participating... if i am, i will be pissed off. i just heard it from my friends, and my friends are totally annoyed with the speaker. Just to stereotyping!!!!

So I really want to be a social worker someday ^^ ... working for children and women ... and then for the homosexual people ... i just want them to have the same right as us .... hope that i can do it in the future.

Loupe,

Ingrid~